How Jealousy & Fear of Losing Clients Was Secretly Blocking My Business Growth (And What Changed Everything)

Let’s talk about something that most people don’t want to admit when they’re growing a business:

Jealousy.
Fear of being abandoned.
That sneaky belief that if someone else wins... you lose.

Yep — that one.

Recently, I joined a 30-day nervous system-based challenge with my mentor — a $33 experiment focused on breaking income ceilings through bold somatic movement and belief shifting. I thought it would be empowering (and it was), but what I didn’t expect was what hit me on day one.

The moment I entered her world and saw how powerful the training was, I felt a wave of jealousy rush through my body like a punch to the gut.

“If I share this with my audience… what if they go to her instead of staying with me?”

Underneath that was something I’ve felt before but never truly faced — the fear of abandonment.

The belief that if I give them something incredible that isn’t mine, they’ll leave me behind.

Choose her. Forget me.

And my business? It’ll shrink, disappear, collapse.

I’ve shoved that fear down before. Told myself I was being silly. Spiritually bypassed it with affirmations.

But this time, I knew I had to deal with it.

So I posted a vulnerable message inside our group chat asking for support. And before my mentor even had the chance to respond, my body knew what to do.

I HAD to move.
I HAD to act.
I HAD to do the exact thing my ego was terrified of.

I shared the challenge. I started inviting people into her world. I risked it.

And what happened next was… nothing short of magic.

Clients said YES.
They thanked me for being generous and inviting them into my world..
They celebrated my transparency.
And in the process, I found peace.

Because the moment I moved with the fear instead of against it, I remembered something powerful:

I am my own damn Source.

Clients can come. Clients can go.

But my power? My magnetism? My ability to attract the right people into my world?

That’s MINE. And no one can take that away.

Within 24 hours of moving through that fear, I became one of the top 3 ambassadors for the entire challenge. I started receiving messages, new client inquiries, and — most importantly — I felt different.

This wasn’t about healing or feeling “safe to receive.”
This was about embodying real power.
Facing the edges of discomfort.
And watching your income ceiling shatter because you chose to show the fuck up anyway.